I am doing GREAT!!! On track and feeling good for 12 days!! It is now time to tell you what occurred during this absence. I gained 42 pounds. I was back up to 319 lbs. I was eating the world, not working out consistently. I have since lost 21 of those pounds. It has been ROUGH. PERIOD. Family, friends were nervous, frustrated, supportive, etc. I WAS AFRAID. But I already told you all that before.
So.....what has been the new strategy that has helped me the past 12 days???.....Among going to new classes like Barre and Yoga, I started meditating, listening to podcasts, reading books and watching movies on self-help.....But the biggest help is....I no longer have access to my money. I know that sounds weak, childish and drastic but I can't seem to make the right decisions daily. Too many weeks went by and I would be good for two-three days and then right back to binge eating. Those weeks accounted for the 42 pound weight gain. I am still working out but I know that weightloss is 100% because of nutrition and exercise just accelerates the weightloss. I understand this will be temporary. Obviously, I need to learn to make healthy decisions for myself but if there is some intervention that I could put in place that will prevent me from gaining most of my weight back, then I will do it. Again, nothing has changed, there should be no reason why I have fallen so hard. BUT until I get my head right and discover along this journey why I keep turning to food to deal with emotions.....I WILL NOT GAIN ANYMORE WEIGHT BACK!!!
Use any tools you have to. Giving up access to your money to prevent you from buying crap is a smart, temporary step. Good for you. You CAN do this!
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